Or may be its the sugar in today's diet
Today was the Solar Eclipse. Tomorrow is my New Year. There has been a lot of debate on when the new year falls- today or tomorrow. Apparently, because of the different calendars and methodologies in calculation of time. My family has decided to celebrate it tomorrow.
This month's horoscope (from astrologyzone.com) and my regular daily horoscopes have been heralding this eclipse and foretelling of great good fortune for me. They have also urged me to work hard and sieze the opportunity. To put into motion all that I had dreamed of achieving.
I am confused. I do not have major goals or dreams as of today. There was a time when I had a plan A and a plan B and a plan C and worked passionately to achieve some of the targets I set for myself. When none of those materialised, I was at a loss and I went back to the world of 9 to 5. I have been at a loss of purpose since then and only continue to work at my job.
So much so, all the impending good fortune makes me excited but also nervous. I feel I might miss the boat if I don't do something. But I do not even know where the boat is going. Or should go. I don't know what I should pack. I don't know what I should wear. I don't know how to how to get to the boat. I don't know my stop. I don't know anything. I feel like I don't have a ticket.
No wonder I feel quite drained this evening. And full of trepidation. New moons perhaps have that effect on us. I'm nervous. I hope things will be at least as good as promised. By the heavens.
This month's horoscope (from astrologyzone.com) and my regular daily horoscopes have been heralding this eclipse and foretelling of great good fortune for me. They have also urged me to work hard and sieze the opportunity. To put into motion all that I had dreamed of achieving.
I am confused. I do not have major goals or dreams as of today. There was a time when I had a plan A and a plan B and a plan C and worked passionately to achieve some of the targets I set for myself. When none of those materialised, I was at a loss and I went back to the world of 9 to 5. I have been at a loss of purpose since then and only continue to work at my job.
So much so, all the impending good fortune makes me excited but also nervous. I feel I might miss the boat if I don't do something. But I do not even know where the boat is going. Or should go. I don't know what I should pack. I don't know what I should wear. I don't know how to how to get to the boat. I don't know my stop. I don't know anything. I feel like I don't have a ticket.
No wonder I feel quite drained this evening. And full of trepidation. New moons perhaps have that effect on us. I'm nervous. I hope things will be at least as good as promised. By the heavens.
posted by Chetana at 7:47 PM
2 Comments:
Happy New Year chet. Sorry I am late in wishing you this. I hope you have a wonderful new year.
You dont really need to have goals in your career only. It seems you have set yourself goals in your music and how can you discard that? I think these goals are more important and getting them is more satisfying.
We all feel the same way, well most of us anyway. I also feel I missed the boat. But in fact we need to really find happiness in smaller things in life, real goals, goals that really matter.
Hope you are having a great one!
Thank you so much. Well, I have been contemplating giving up music. I haven't progressed much in all the time I "spent" on it. May be its not my thing. Sadly.
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